Religious Type?.......

Some may say I'm religious type.

The kind caught head bowed in the churches
Singing praise like it's worth it!

You can judge me if you'd like
Label me a hater
That can't change my behavior!

Some say I'm not living life!
But the freedom I'm caught up in
Gives me grace that's not deserving

I know I ain't get it right
All the rules and obligations
Some see stamped on my forehead

Thank God he paid the price
So I can ditch the religion
That was never meant for humans

For it under simplifies
The only love that matters
Which can never be defeated

Only Limited by our pride,
Thinking we know best
but fail come the test

Now I must testify
That my God is greater
So excuse my past behavior

Some say my faith is crazy! A'ight
But My God moves mountains
That we can't even fathom
Even when I fail at life

He still tells me that I'm worth it,
That there is power where my heart is

Some say I'm religious type
But here I am to tell you
That it's all second nature
When I am filled right up with Christ
What you see me doing is more than just believing
But loving with my life

To see Jesus as the center
Where love can take over

And make all New this life
The one found hopeless in disaster,
Missing peace we're chased after

Pure love can set it right
Some might claim that it's hopeless but I know who my God is!

Anxiety Might Have a Grasp, but it Will Never Win!

My anxiety grips me.

I try to run but it’s always faster.

The more I long to escape, the less grounded I become and the less of reality that I see.

I know that the easy way out is to let the anxiety engulf me. 

I feel it gaining by the day, by the hour with only brief moments of relief. 

I can feel the burden on my chest, the weight that is dragging me down.

Broken I am, but in that brokenness, I will stand up time and time again.

Only by the grace of God that I'd have the strength to face another day. 

To endure the self that only longs to keep me enchained in a non-grounded way!

But keep me down my anxiety within cannot accomplish, for I trust Christ with this. 

I don’t know why this internal griping on my soul exists, but I am here to stay.

Determined to conquer it by utilizing the grace that God bestows upon me.

Clinging to his outstretched hand that is so undeserving. 

So even though this anxiety grips me with shows no signs of release,

my longing to escape as strong as it is, remains minimal in comparison.

Minimal in comparison to the hunger I have to follow the will of God and spread his love to all of humanity.

For even in this prison chained by angst, my joy is still present, because ultimately my joy is independent of my circumstances.

Found guilty of being only dependent on my relationship with God.

Even in my doubt, God is there walking ahead of me, particularly within grasp that my anxiety has upon me in the present. So run I might try but resting in God's arms is what I have been created to do.

Programmed into my very being to trust during every moment that comes my way!

Dear God; A Prayer of Action

Dear God,

I am ready to jump in the direction of where you call me. I know that the clarity of the path in front of me is what I long for, but my longing for doing your will is greater. Please show me the places that you need me to be, and give me enough understanding to make it happen.

And in that moment I will see where the Holy Spirit is leading me. 

Please take my anxiety and use it for your kingdom wok, as right now, only destruction is all I see.

 I know good plans for my future is what you have for me, but my natural tendencies crave to overpower.

In this muffle of cloudiness that I find myself, please remind me to cling to the rock of your truth. This tribulation too has a purpose, if only I continue to seek your will, as I’m striving to do.

To seek your will daily, to wonder about your glory, to be entranced by the goodness that you undeservedly bestow upon me.

Teach me how to transform my blessings into vessels of truth, that in-turn holds the ability to bless other people more abundantly.

Please rid me of all selfishness and remind me of your faithfulness Lord.

Especially when the times get tough and I find myself in a pit of doubt and a state with little faith. 

Challenge and motivate me to get back up and to take on anything that is placed in my way! Shake me, and open my eyes to see as you do.

You are greater than anything I will ever face, so I know that overcoming is all I amorogramed to do with you on my side.

Thank you for your un-fathomable love!

Love,

Raelynn